Last night, in trying to unravel a mysterious weird thing I did in my Back to Basics lap blanket, I realized that the length of this ‘blanket,’ especially considering that I have only two skeins, was more of a scarf. Since the fiber does not lend itself to much draping and I can’t stand scarves anyway for earring tangling reasons, I’ve decided to frog it all and start again— this time paying more attention to how many stitches I cast on so that the dang thing will be roughly square or rectangular.

I’m beginning to understand why so many knitters have multiple projects going at once, in various stages of completion. It’s exactly why I sometimes need to stop one memory in EMDR and start another: I’ve hit a brick wall, I’m getting bored and frustrated and making no progress, or I simply don’t have the right tools or experience to deal with this project/memory right now.

And that’s okay! I’ll get to the gauntlet. I’ll finish the lap blanket. And someday I will integrate and thus put certain memories behind me for good.

THEN I AND MY KNITTING WILL BE PERFECT AND RULE THE WORLD

beware